leaving on a late train...

i am SO not ready to leave town... the "indefinite" part of the trip is what's tripping me up, i suppose. what does one pack for "either two weeks or three months?" roomie just paid me for june rent, which is a load off, financially and mentally, but still. i love having the job flexibility to do things like this, but i still don't have the mental flexibility not to be paranoid about it, the way i used to when i had seemingly unlimited credit. (plus, this means i'll be carrying about a grand in cash on the train, since i forgot to make a deposit yesterday. not smart, since i plan to sleep the whole way.) amtrak.com says my 4am train is scheduled to leave an hour and a half late (oof!) but arrive in the city 15 minutes early... huh. i actually wouldn't mind if it arrived late, since i have a three hour layover in the city and will be saddled with an as yet undetermined number of bags (depending on how many pairs of shoes i decide to take)... but i'd really rather it departed on time, since my love for that particular route is dependent on 4am being my usual bedtime. C offered to pick me up in the city, as he's headed up to rhinebeck tonight too, but he'll have a couple lawyers in tow, and i'm thinking the train might be more relaxing, especially after having been traveling for so many hours. we'll see how bored i get at penn station. in other news, for some strange reason i cannot access anything google-related. no gmail, no random searches. so when i come home and put on some loud music to help me get motivated to pack, but have the tv muted on baseball tonight, and i see a fistfight at a game but can't hear the details, i can't hit google to find out what happened. the only other search engine i could recall was "dogpile"... i put in "fight, mlb, home plate" and the best i got was news from a brawl in 2004. seriously. anyone have alternate worthwhile search engines? i was so close to signing up for mlb.tv, but if i'm going to be in new york indefinitely, there's no need-- there's always a game on tv up there. (and yeah, i caught the replay and know it was chicago. and it was saturday-- day late, dollar short, etc.) wait, now the train is 3 hours late... sigh. might be time to put on a pot of coffee. plus? getting a cab in this town at 3am, no problem. the last time i had to get one at 6am, i ended up being late for surgery, and i nearly got into a fistfight with the cabdriver on the way there, after she yelled at me for not knowing specific directions to the address i'd given her-- after she was 20 minutes late arriving to pick me up. i'm sorry... are you a cabdriver? is this reality? did i ask you to take me to "yonder dirt road past the dumpin yards," or a major medical facility just off the highway? i later heard the doc yelling at the sweet anesthesiologist for not having me ready on schedule, but the dope had already started to take effect & i couldn't properly defend him. maybe i should just head to the station now and wait it out there. or: maybe i should finish packing. an hour after my train was scheduled to depart seems like a good time for that.