grown-up thoughts

florida was a blast... didn't take many pictures (again) other than at the ponce inlet lighthouse. see 'em here. tales from the trip later. woke up yesterday with two full, grown-up thoughts in my head: i need to work more, and i shouldn't take the whole month of march off as planned. in general, the most in my brain when i wake is "what time is it? & do i have to be anywhere today?" so these thoughts took me quite by surprise, and further, i figured i should take them seriously. so since then i've been stressing, job-browsing, and doing financial math. thinking about borrowing enough from C to take some classes in the spring, at the very least. put up a roomie ad today, which i wasn't planning to do for a couple months. applied for a seasonal job or two. i'd been thinking i'd skate by for another few years, line up a semi-real job and be in the swing of it by the time i turn 40. (odd that i had no trouble picturing or handling 30, but 40 just doesn't seem possible.) now, though... i'll likely need to replace the car and the laptop within the year, not to mention the remaining dental work, and the week away as always made me want to move, which leads again back to the school thing. obstacle in common: money. perhaps it's finally time for me to act like a grownup. bah humbug.